I found out I
was pregnant on July 4, 1999. I was 19 years old. In that moment I was
overwhelmed at the sudden realization that I would forever be
responsible for another human being and with absolute JOY that I was
going to be a mother – I was ready for the challenge! Soon after, I made
my first prenatal appointment at an office that had OBs and nurse
midwives; I had always thought it would be cool to have a midwife attend
my birth. I really hadn’t thought about how very different care
providers could be. After talking to other moms I decided to switch to a
different practice with more midwives. I enjoyed the care I received but
began to feel uncomfortable with my choice after I had started my
natural birth classes. I knew I had to be with someone who
supported my decision to birth naturally 100%, so I switched, yet again,
about 5 weeks from my due date (it’s never too late!!). The woman I
chose to attend my birth was WONDERFUL and very supportive of our
wishes.
On Tuesday, my
husband and I attended our last natural childbirth class, four days
after my due date. I had had a lot of sporadic cramping (like menstrual
cramps) through the day and during relaxation practice in class I could
feel my uterus tightening and getting hard – I would never have noticed
if I hadn’t been lying on the floor - I didn’t feel a thing! After class
I had been talking to our teacher and telling her about all the things I
had been feeling throughout the day and she said ‘I’ll probably hear
from you tonight or tomorrow’ – truer words were never spoken!
Nick and I
enjoyed our drive home as we did every week, talking about life and all
that was coming in the future, and our new baby.
When we got home
I got ready for bed. In case my teacher was right, I needed some extra
rest. I called my mother – and the first words out of my mouth were ‘NO!
I’m not in labor’ – to save her the trouble of asking. As any woman
close to her due date can attest to – getting or making phone calls can
be a real practice in patience. I said good night and got off the phone.
Nick and I were
settling into bed. I reached up to grab the headboard of my bed to help
haul me and my full term belly over onto my side. As soon as I tightened
up my abdominal muscles I felt a… pop… twinge… and I said “ow” – just a
little ‘ow’, mind you. Poor Nicholas sat straight up in the bed and said
“what!?!?” sounding slightly panicked. I sat up just a little bit and
felt something warm on my legs so I replied “either my water broke or I
just peed on myself” (I was completely serious). I sat up a little
further and felt a little more warmth and I knew my water had broken.
Within moments
my body was completely taken over by my labor. I got no warning, no warm
up contractions. My contractions were crashing down hard and furious
with barely a break in between. I had long enough to think a thought
before the next one came. With Nick’s help I made my way to the toilet
hoping it would be more comfortable – it wasn’t. I knew I HAD to get on
the floor on my hands and knees… Ahhhh! Relief! I am ever thankful that
I went against everything I ‘thought’ about labor and listened to my
intuition.
Now I could just
let them come, let my body work and keep myself calm. I was in another
place. I remember looking up and seeing my mother in the doorway of the
bathroom- and having had three children herself, she could see I was
clearly far beyond early labor. I was very close to having this baby.
I wanted to be
nowhere else except that bathroom, I did not want to leave for the
hospital (if we all knew then what we know now, I would have just stayed
home! Live and learn…). My mom finally managed to get me out of the
floor and Nick helped me to the car. By this time my endorphins and
adrenaline had kicked in – so my contractions had slowed enough that I
could handle them. I remember breathing as deeply as I could the whole
way to the hospital and holding Nick’s hand.
When we arrived
I was taken to triage, checked, and found to be TEN centimeters,
completely dilated – I was elated!
This all
happened within about an hour – the first call to my mom, my water
breaking, and arriving at the hospital.
We were taken to
a room and an on-call midwife was rounded up in case my doctor didn’t
make it (though she did make it). Nick did an awesome job at fending off
the IVs, monitoring and whatnot amidst the insanity. We even had a nurse
leave and find us a different nurse! I guess she didn’t want to be with
the crazy natural birthers!
Someone asked if
we wanted anyone else in the room for the birth and though Nick and I
had planned on doing this alone, we decided to invite my parents, a
decision I will FOREVER be thankful for! I had my very own cheering
section. My dad was at my left shoulder telling me what a great job I
was doing, my mother by my left leg emanating excitement, Nick at my
right leg almost climbing over me trying to watch our daughter be born,
and the world’s most fantastic (and extremely exceptional) nurse at my
right shoulder who was there with a sip of water or cool cloth before I
could even ask.
I don’t remember
exactly how long I pushed (my labor was a grand total of about 2 and a
half hours) but I remembered feeling very determined. I was
excited to meet my baby girl!
I will never
forget the moment her little body slipped out of mine. It was amazing,
and I can only describe it like that moment when you go just a little
too fast over a hill in a car. What a remarkable feeling!! My body
opening up and birthing a brand new person! I’m glad I could feel every
twinge of it!
As soon as she
was laid on my chest she actually held up her little tiny head and
looked at me – she was perfect…